In this very moment I have realized that,
I am going to be okay.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Talking myself out of a funk
I am strong. I can do this. I have control over my mind, thoughts, and fears. Not the other way around. Calm down, deep breaths, don't get overwhelmed. Yes, you're going through alot right now but don't let it get to you. Think logically, organize your thoughts even though your mind is spinning a million times a minute. There is a solution to everything, remember that!
What would make me feel better?
First of all, go find people, it's better than being alone in your room.
Do something productive, like go for a walk.
Remember past experiences when you felt like this...YOU GOT OVER THEM, and you can do it again.
Distract yourself. Watch a funny, lighthearted movie.
Breath. Baby steps. You don't have to have it all figured out right now, you're working towards it, slowly.
What would make me feel better?
First of all, go find people, it's better than being alone in your room.
Do something productive, like go for a walk.
Remember past experiences when you felt like this...YOU GOT OVER THEM, and you can do it again.
Distract yourself. Watch a funny, lighthearted movie.
Breath. Baby steps. You don't have to have it all figured out right now, you're working towards it, slowly.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Agnostic
I don't like not having God in my life.
I'm scared, confused, angry.
I'm tired of going around in circles with my doubts and questions. There's never a satisfying conclusion. Neverending cycle.
I talked to God tonight. Thanked Him for a wonderful night with friends, and for a family who loves me at home. I don't really know why I decided to pray.
God knows about my struggles. He knows why I don't believe or have faith in Him. I tell it like it is. I asked for a sign...or something, ANYTHING to make me believe. I told Him that I would need something big, right smack in my face. My dean (who I consider a friend) suggested that maybe God has been showing me...I've just been overlooking it all. She reminded me that God can work through people too.
Open my eyes God. I want to believe in you. I used to say that I needed all my doubt and frustration cleared before I could believe. Is that fair? I dunno. How bout if you give me just enough faith get me started. I'm warning you though, "just enough faith" is actually a pretty substantial amount. I'm a skeptic.
I'm scared, confused, angry.
I'm tired of going around in circles with my doubts and questions. There's never a satisfying conclusion. Neverending cycle.
I talked to God tonight. Thanked Him for a wonderful night with friends, and for a family who loves me at home. I don't really know why I decided to pray.
God knows about my struggles. He knows why I don't believe or have faith in Him. I tell it like it is. I asked for a sign...or something, ANYTHING to make me believe. I told Him that I would need something big, right smack in my face. My dean (who I consider a friend) suggested that maybe God has been showing me...I've just been overlooking it all. She reminded me that God can work through people too.
Open my eyes God. I want to believe in you. I used to say that I needed all my doubt and frustration cleared before I could believe. Is that fair? I dunno. How bout if you give me just enough faith get me started. I'm warning you though, "just enough faith" is actually a pretty substantial amount. I'm a skeptic.
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