Emotions are silly things; you can't underestimate them. Though many times fickle, they have the potential to influence your outlook and govern your actions. Blurring the line between disillusion and reality. Emotions are powerful and scary. I am swarming with emotions right now. Deep down inside, I have a "feeling" that tells me to run. But if I do, I'll have negative feelings too. Heartache, despair, anger, sorrow. It's a catch 22 really, and it's not fair.
I used to blog all the time. Now I just blog when something is weighing heavily on my heart. I'm on the verge of getting my heart broken. Emotions are nothing new to me, but I don't feel like I can process sorrow right now. I don't want my heart to hurt. I don't want to be sad. I don't want to miss anyone. It takes me forever to grieve, to move on, and become whole again. I don't feel very strong or capable of doing these things right now. Stupid emotions. I wish I had a robot heart.
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